Thank you, sir! Question, did you by chance listen to the audio version? I'm kinda curious how many people listened to my rendition. It's even more visceral haha.
Wow, I could have written most of that. My anxiety is so bad that I chew my fingers and the inside of my mouth. I make myself bleed. Im on meds for it but I dont know if they do a damn thing...the thoughts I have are insane. The what ifs are really bad.
Im taking CBT for it and I have noticed some patterns but have yet to learn how to change the thoughts so till then I think myself sick. I use to be on a pill that was suppose to help asap but the doctor took me off it, no reason why just stopped it. It didn't do much to stop that freight train of thoughts, it just goes at break neck speed downhill with no breaks...
Thank you for sharing your anxiety meltdown with us. I dont feel like such a weirdo knowing others do this too.
I think I will go read some of my therapy work book...I have 2 chapters to read this week.
I have anxiety over therapy as well but I know (I tell myself) it will help me. Miss you buddy. My CD of your music finally wore out. Lol. It brought me much comfort over the years. <3
I relate with you so much on that part where you are so overridden with anxiety that you just need someone to tell you you are okay.
When I am in one of my episodes, I somehow end up broadcasting my issues to everyone. I literally have some notes I have posted here on Substack which were results of an intense panic session. They look so desperate now and I feel embarrassed that I put it out myself, but funnily enough, those are the same notes that got me some likes lol.
My partner is quite irritated with this habit of mine and I don't know how but I am trying to work on it?
I never thought that this was something that was common with people who have anxiety issues or is it?
People have been calling me crazy for years, mostly when I see through their bullshit. Being officially Old, I have decided to embrace this. Anxiety sure sucks though and there is a lot in this piece I relate to.
My anxiety doesn't manifest this way, but it was really interesting to read.
I feel like I got a peak into your brain and brains like yours.
As the writing goes, I could feel the emotions going through me. Well done!
Thank you, sir! Question, did you by chance listen to the audio version? I'm kinda curious how many people listened to my rendition. It's even more visceral haha.
I haven't, I have been avoiding audio versions on substack. Probably just being stubborn about just reading on substack. 😜
Ha fair enough! Thank you for the read and comment!!
Wow, I could have written most of that. My anxiety is so bad that I chew my fingers and the inside of my mouth. I make myself bleed. Im on meds for it but I dont know if they do a damn thing...the thoughts I have are insane. The what ifs are really bad.
Im taking CBT for it and I have noticed some patterns but have yet to learn how to change the thoughts so till then I think myself sick. I use to be on a pill that was suppose to help asap but the doctor took me off it, no reason why just stopped it. It didn't do much to stop that freight train of thoughts, it just goes at break neck speed downhill with no breaks...
Thank you for sharing your anxiety meltdown with us. I dont feel like such a weirdo knowing others do this too.
I think I will go read some of my therapy work book...I have 2 chapters to read this week.
I have anxiety over therapy as well but I know (I tell myself) it will help me. Miss you buddy. My CD of your music finally wore out. Lol. It brought me much comfort over the years. <3
I relate with you so much on that part where you are so overridden with anxiety that you just need someone to tell you you are okay.
When I am in one of my episodes, I somehow end up broadcasting my issues to everyone. I literally have some notes I have posted here on Substack which were results of an intense panic session. They look so desperate now and I feel embarrassed that I put it out myself, but funnily enough, those are the same notes that got me some likes lol.
My partner is quite irritated with this habit of mine and I don't know how but I am trying to work on it?
I never thought that this was something that was common with people who have anxiety issues or is it?
Is this a thing?
I am SO with you there my friend. I broadcast HARD when things are going wrong in my head. I think this is a thing!
People have been calling me crazy for years, mostly when I see through their bullshit. Being officially Old, I have decided to embrace this. Anxiety sure sucks though and there is a lot in this piece I relate to.